Fear

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light,not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of god. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. You are born to make manifest the glory of god that is within you. It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone. As we let our own light shin, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we liberate from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others." - Nelson Mandella

As struggle to come to terms with my decision to move forward with my life, I wonder if it's worth it to leave my job, my career, the life I worked so hard to create for myself. There is great fear in leaving the security of a secure income, a schedule, a routine....but there is greater fear in not moving forward and regretting that I never made the decision to leave and to start a new life, however temporary that may be. As a wise woman told me: "Life is short, so go and make it sweet!"

Upon my return from India, to my world..my life, I may struggle with finding a new job, with money, with getting my feet back on the ground, but it's a far better struggle than never going and asking myself, what if? When the time comes to leave this body, I won't wish I worked longer or never left for India, all that will matter is that I have no regrets and the people who are around me that I love.

I have decided to put my fears aside and go forward, I chose life and happiness.